The allure of "Unhealthy" food, and why it has been such an emotional clutch
First off, I just want to mention that I am trying to heal my relationship with food. Food has always been what I go to in times of emotional distress. More commonly, however, I go to food whenever I feel emotional bored. I believe this stemmed from a time when I was oh-so-young. When I was five years old, I lived on the tiny island of Guam. There wasn't much to do back in the day before smartphones. I parents, both of whom were barely out of their teens, did not know how to entertain me, let alone three children. They were still traumatized from the time my sister passed away at six months. In their anxiety and heartbreak from the whole ordeal, I was banned from going outside past 6PM. Why 6PM, I couldn't tell you, but I do know that I would get a big butt-whoopin' if I was even one-minute late. Unfortunately, I would be stuck in the house bored out of my mind. I was a kid that needed tons of mental stimulation. I like to think that I was a lot smarter than kids of my age ...